Mayhem

It's May and it is gloomy outside. Sat in the dark in the office, lit only by the screen of my work pc, the silence of being 2 hours early and moody ambiance of my surrounding brought me here to write.

Haven't been feeling the best and it feels as if my mind is filled with scrambled letters with words I refuse to acknowledge, thoughts I am meant to keep to myself and everything else. How do you express when people read between the lines instead of taking it as it is. How do you get a point across without sounding like you are complaining. The last time I fell into silence, I stayed in too long.
I have been told many times that I am too anal (psychoanalysis) to the point I get angry at everyone and everything. Draining myself. 

But that is me.

I think too much. Cared and still care too much about others who gives zero fucks about me.

So where is this entry heading to?

Just a reminder to myself and anyone to PRIORITISE, LOVE, FORGIVE and DREAM for yourself FIRST. Be at PEACE with yourself before others.

and change will come.

  

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#throwbackpost

Freezing time

October 21, 2008 at 12:33am

Funny how the title resembles to what I actually do. A photographer freezes time. We, try to capture the moment as we see it using this complicated machine.Only the photographer knows what he or she felt when they took that particular photo. And only they know the exact feeling.

Anyways, with all the "going ons", I do wish I could freeze time. Not turn it back, but just freeze it. I just miss not doing anything on a Sunday. I miss not doing anything after 5. I'm not regretting, don't get me wrong. My job isn't exactly a point and shoot. You blink, you'll miss. There's hours working on the puter, hours just trying to nail that shot, hours lost to practicing instead of just sleeping, or watching tv. Crap, when was the last time I watched tv?

I remember telling someone something very important today. And I must admit, I surprised myself for saying that too.

"We can't win them all. We can't do it all. It's better to be good in one thing rather than nothing at all. We have to find balance. I know I do."

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The Virgin Way

I seriously fell off the radar didn't I. Said I will write more but the complete opposite happened. Reading up blogs purely for work. Brainstorming to write but perhaps with the lack of nicotine and coffee, everything turned hazy and *cough* dull. Or perhaps I'm over thinking and pretend to function like an artist. Uninspired without her creative juice(s).

*blows an imaginary smoke*

What should I do? 

Social media took over my life mostly for work. Its easier to post thoughts over Twitter but with that said my thoughts never made it to 140 letters . I am mostly on Instagram but its private because I like to pretend I am a mysterious and private person. The need to visualize without having to say much or anything at all is easy. The photos are my responsibility but the caption is yours to assume.

We have become so connected in the world through the internet but fail to connect as human. Laughs turned into haha-s or LOL. A real coffee stained toothy smile are replaced with emojis and lastly conversation goes dead with "last seen 2 hours ago." We subconsciously turned and accept ourselves for being rude individuals leaving conversation without a proper thank you or speak to you later politeness. We rely on the blue double check read sign as an acknowledge receipt instead of calling to confirm.

Let's start again. 

Hi, my name is Edrie. Just a writer blogger someone who has been recording her thoughts in words and photos online since 2002-2003. I enjoy taking photographs and uttering profanity in the most creative way. An introvert working in an extrovert industry. A glutton trying to lift weights and squat my gluteus maximus hard. I love my dogs and the sea. I speak too soft and mumble my thoughts in fake accent(s) pretending I only function after coffee.

If you are still here, drop a comment. If you are also stalking me, then you do you. Go mysterious bat-shit on me and don't tell me you're reading this. It makes my life easier knowing no one reads my inane ramblings.

Lastly, I am only responsible for what I write and not for what you understand. 

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A never too late post.

A year ago I told myself to write more. Its good for the soul. That however, went ashtray and I had less than 10 post in 2014.

Writing is a resolution that can and should be "recycled". Here's to 2015 and again, from Neil Gaiman.

Happy New Year.

Be kind to yourself in the year ahead. 

Remember to forgive yourself, and to forgive others. It's too easy to be outraged these days, so much harder to change things, to reach out, to understand.

Try to make your time matter: minutes and hours and days and weeks can blow away like dead leaves, with nothing to show but time you spent not quite ever doing things, or time you spent waiting to begin.

Meet new people and talk to them. Make new things and show them to people who might enjoy them. 

Hug too much. Smile too much. And, when you can, love. 

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H&M | Kota Kinabalu!

#HMSABAH Opening this 20th November 2014 in 1Borneo Hypermall!

Super excited! H&M is opening its first store in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. I love their basic range and for someone who loves affordable fashion, opening 3 days after my birthday, this is surely a sign.

1Borneo is some 20 minutes drive from where I am in KK. I was hoping it would open across the street in Suria Mall but that would be extra dangerous for a shopaholic (who isn't?!). Never know though. ;)

I browsed H&M website and already got all excited.

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The North Face Korea - Awesome marketing

I have always love a good ad. Who doesn't? Especially something as clever as this one. Made me want to go out and climb a wall and hopefully win a rock climbing shoes or something as awesome as that.

No this is not a paid post or anything. I love sharing good stuff. :)

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Because I love Neil Gaiman

deadtastebuds asked: I'm not asking you this because I am assuming you are one, but what do you do if you're a bad person?

"Mm. I’m not sure there really are good or bad people.

I think there are people who do good or bad things. If you are one of the people who does bad things, then, don’t. Don’t do stuff that hurts other people or harms them or makes their life worse. Do good things instead. Volunteer. Be kind. Help. Look after yourself and look after other people — don’t try and beat them. Life’s not a battle you were put here to win: we’re all in this together, trying to help each other to muddle through as best we can. So help, if you can. And if you cannot help, then do no harm.

That’s what I’d do." Neil Gaiman

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